two country dads

Update from Tuesday's session - I tried to write this up the other day but I was still a little confused. Session basically went fine, We have a date for panel as April 17th. Its been pushed back a little but it actually suits us better with work etc. We have our observation booked for next week then one more booked for the week after then we will be done. SW will head off and write our report up, we'll read it and have the independent assessment then on to panel. It has flown by. Feels crazy to think we are nearly over this section. We also talked about how we planned to parent, deal with issues and what we'd be prepared to take on as far as special needs etc. It was all fairly painless and straight forward. The reason I haven't been able to post about it earlier is because of the older child we have expressed an interest in. I feel very muddled about what we should do and how we should feel about him. The reality is that it would be easier for us if we weren't m...

Not had a chance to get my thoughts down after last session. Will try to now. SW has given us the CRP of the 10 year old boy who we are interested in to see if we may want to go further with him once we're approved. Ben has been worried about having an older child and missing out on some of the play and bonding with a younger one. It was a tense week building up to getting the report and we were trying to second guess what it might say. Actually reading it there is nothing major in it. Neglected by his BP but not abused as such. He also seems to form attachments well and is desperate for a family. Obviously we need more info but we've desided that we're still interested and would like to proceed with him. We also started talking about how we will parent wich is a funny thing. Although we've spoken generally about it we've not sat down and articulated it fully. Feels like we're coming to the end of our home visits which is scary. We have been sent the last se...