two country dads

I have to vent the "child crazy" mood I'm in and dear blog that is why you're here so forgive me but .... I WANT OUR CHILD - NOW - please and thank you. Phew. Glad that's out. We're not linked our anything and haven't heard any news for a while but I'm literally obsessed with thinking about having a kid. Our lovely friends from prep group are meeting their two (greedy) sons tomorrow and now schools have broken up our shop is full of young families. I think I freak the kids out by being so catty with them. They ave a look of "dude back off and stop being odd" also with the schools breaking up comes an end to my weekly volunteering at the reception class so I don't even get a morning talking to little ones. I feel like I'm going a loopy. There is nothing to be done about this apart from get over myself and be logical - today neither of these things are happening. Anyway that's it - nothing of interest to report apart from my

I have no news apart from we have no news! Haven't heard anything from SW so no new matches. We have another month to wait before we can go on the national register so can't be proactive yet. Keep trying to say to ourselves (and everyone who asks) that actually it's a good thing and we're really busy with work so we're happy to wait but we really want a kid. We are volunteering at pre school and primary school and this morning I drove past Ben walking with two kids holding his hand and it floored me - felt so overwhelmed with emotion about seeing him as a dad. Actually makes me feel teary thinking about it again whilst I type. We are also meeting up this weekend with our friends from prep group. One couple have their son who we'll meet for the first time (!) the others are going to matching panel next week and fostering panel the week after to get two brothers (adopt one and foster other as he's new born and may go back to birth family). We really are th