Session 12 .... Head scramble

Funny session today, we basically went over our Eco map. Writing down who our support network are then talking about how they would physically and emotionally support us once we have a child. It was a nice positive session and was nice to think about post adoption for the first time really. Up to now it has been about our past and who we are but today felt more about what life might be like with a child.

We also tied up a few loose ends with references and interviews.

Then as our social worker was packing up to leave she casually asked if we had thought anymore about the 10 year old boy we expressed an interest in at the parenting course. I had to admit to thinking about him almost constantly but tried to explain that we are being realistic and trying to manage our expectations. She said that they had had a session with the team and they were talking about him and she said at the end there was hardly a dry eye amongst the social workers! I think he so wants a family and because one adoption fell through for him (but not his sister) they are all quiet attached to him. She also said that he has issues connecting to women because of his history with Birth Mother. She mentioned it because we have our mid way review next Tuesday and the head of the service knows we were keen. It has sent our head spinning a bit really ... I'm trying not to feel anything too extreme yet as we are still limited to what we know about him. It has left me feeling very odd for the rest of the day. Can't really finish a thought process about it. Guess I need to put it out of my mind for another week but I can't help moving him in. We go to panel in two months and we could try and push to get a matching panel on the same day if his SW thought we were a good match ..... That's me trying to put it out of my mind .... Not very good huh?!

Arghhhh

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