"3 more sleeps"

the title of this post is misleading - there are only two more sleeps till we meet our little one, however yesterday we had an email from his social worker saying that she had been to see him and given him our introduction book and that he was very excited and had said he only had three more sleeps till he met us ... this statement floored me! It is so nice to know that he knows that this is happening and that we are coming to meet him. I totally understand that he will be feeling a lot of various emotions but that some of those feelings are positive is amazing. The day before we found out that his Foster carer had been reading And Tango Makes Three to him and telling him that he will be going to a family with two daddies (again the message coming back was that he was very excited)

It is hard to explain or understand how I am feeling at the moment, I have never experienced anything like it - I seem to go from feeling extremely excited to extremely nervous then extremely anxious to extremely excited in a cycle every few minutes ... it is a crazy wonderful feeling that I am sure is going to continue through introductions next week.

We have today left to finish off some last bits of decorating then tomorrow morning it is off on a plane again before we have a planning meeting on Monday morning. After the meeting his social worker and foster carer will head home to tell him we are on our way then ... well we get to meet our son .... Monday is going to be a big day ... and there are just two more sleeps to go.

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