Two days to go .....

I've not really had time to sit and write up what has been happening the last week or so, things have been a little crazy.

We have been rushing around trying to get the house ready and more importantly LO's room - we are taking an introduction book with us on Friday to matching panel with the hope that all goes as planned and we're approved. It is odd working on something so definite and personal but still not being 100% confirmed that the match will happen. Everyone seems very positive and our social worker has no doubt that it will happen but the fear is real. It's also difficult because you don't want to talk about it going wrong (don't want to jinx it).

Also yesterday my body gave up a little - endoftermitis - and I had to sleep most of the morning, so that put us back a little, the need for things to be perfect before panel is an odd feeling, it seems so important to know that everything is just right and however much you read about other people telling you it is impossible (it is by the way) you still want to make everything right.

Today is our final day at home before panel to finish off his introduction book and to get his room looking ready (or ready enough). If all goes well on Friday we'll have a week at home finishing everything off before introductions start. It's very exciting and very nervous making.

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